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About christinamarie1119

I have had a long 30 years filled with bullshitters & liars. In that time I became a mommy five times and learned what love really means. This is my story.

Wowsers.

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I can’t believe I never heard this song before.  I could’ve used it about 6 months ago.

Christina Aguilera-

“Stronger Than Ever”

What you gave me, I know you gave me
You remind me all the time
And how you hurt me and you don’t see it
Again, I am the child
And though you tell me that you love me
I can’t feel it and I’m afraid to let you down
It’s all or nothing, I fear that something’s wrong

I’m tired of walking on eggshells, so terrified to fail
And in order to please you I’ve abandoned myself
And though it used to hurt me when you pushed me away
I’m stronger than ever, you made me this way

How I wish you, you suffered less too
It tears us both apart
And it’s not pretty, the way you criticize me
And how it breaks my heart

And though you tell me that you love me
I can’t feel it and I’m afraid to let you down
It’s all or nothing, I fear that something’s wrong

I’m tired of walking on eggshells, so terrified to fail
And in order to please you I’ve abandoned myself
And though it used to hurt me when you pushed me away
I’m stronger than ever, you made me this way

How I wish you knew, how much I need you
I feel like running but I can’t abandon you
You avoid my gaze, withdraw from me these days
You punish me for trying to be all that you wanted
What more can I do?

I’m tired of walking on eggshells, so terrified to fail
And in order to please you I’ve abandoned myself
And though it used to hurt me when you pushed me away
I’m stronger than ever, you made me this way

I’m tired of walking on eggshells, so terrified to fail
And in order to please you I’ve abandoned myself
And though it used to hurt me when you pushed me away
I’m stronger than ever, you made me this way

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Off go the pants!

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Just a short update here on the ACE weightloss.  I did not weigh this week because I knew I wouldn’t be happy.  Damn female hormones to hell!  Last week I was down at least 10, however, I didn’t have a scale a few weeks back that worked correctly so it could be more.

This morning I got out of bed and my pants almost fell off!  Woot! 😀

To help things move along faster, I’m starting back at the gym today, too!  Have to get things moving….date nights are almost here! 😉